Alice Glass Statement. Some of you may be aware that Ive opened up about my experiences with abuse in the. Programs For At Risk Youth Los Angeles. The ORA Electronic Reading Room displays copies of ORA records. We are making these records publicly available either 1 proactively at our discretion or 2 because. Ive been very guarded about the information Ive given and I havent publicly. Ive been afraid. Ive been threatened and harassed and as a. Ive been silenced. The momentum thats been created recently by the many courageous women who have. This is for my own recovery, for the other women who have been, are currently, or. Cover Letter ZumbaInvesting in clean energy creates jobs and boosts the United States economic competitiveness. Its why Americas companies, cities and higher educational. Letter Zu' title='Letter Zu' />I met Ethan Kath Claudio Palmieri when I was in the 1. The first time he. I was around 1. 5. He was 1. 0 years older than me. I. came to in the back of his car extremely intoxicated from drinks he had given me that. Salinas Letter Zumba' title='Salinas Letter Zumba' />We didnt talk for months after that. He went to great lengths to find me again. He tracked me down and showed up places I was hanging out and we eventually. I was very young and naive and in a compromised position in my life. I. perceived him as a local rock star because I had seen his band, Kill Cheerleader, on TV. A lot of my friends from the punk scene had also been taken advantage of by much older. Claudio was very manipulative towards me. He figured out my insecurities and exploited. Over a period of many. It wasnt always consensual and he remained sober. When I was 1. 6 or 1. CD of songs and asked me to write and sing over. I took the songs home and wrote lyrics and melodies and we recorded the tracks I. But even with music, he created a toxic environment that I often felt I had to go. While recording our first EP, the recording engineer sexually harassed me. Claudio laughed at me and pressured me to go along with it. He called our first single Alice Practice and said my vocals were a mic test. He. concocted that story and told press it was an accidental recording, intentionally. It was another way of putting me down and preying on. Soon after, we were invited to tour the UK. I was overwhelmed by how quickly things. Claudio convinced me to drop out of high school only 2. As we started to gain attention, he began abusively and. I could talk to, where I could go, what I could say in public, what I was allowed to. He kept me from doing interviews or photoshoots unless he was in control of the. Our fame grew in Crystal Castles but he didnt feel he was getting the. He became physically abusive. He held me over a staircase and threatened to throw me. Custom Shoes For Sale. He picked me up over his shoulders and threw me onto concrete. He took. pictures of my bruises and posted them online. I tried to leave, and he swore that it. More severe. psychological and emotional abuse took its place. He controlled everything I did. I wasnt allowed to have my own phone or my own credit. I ate. He berated me and yelled at me. I was a joke, that all the people that came to our shows were only. I was ruining the band. He broke glass shower. He told me that my feminism made me a. He forced me to have sex with him or, he. I wouldnt be allowed to be in the band anymore. I was miserable and my lyrics indirectly spoke to the pain and oppression that I was. But as is sometimes the case in abusive relationships, his cruelty was often. He was very good at keeping his terrible treatment of me private. He was charming sometimes, he was hyper protective and most of all I loved the band. But he often told me how replaceable I was. Hed even tell me that he. He kept me insecure and on edge, and. He told me it. was us against everyone, because everyone else thought I was a loser, a joke, a. I believed him. I was suicidal for years. Leaving Crystal Castles was the single most difficult decision Ive ever madethat band. My music, my performances and my fans were all I had in the. I gave that up and started over not because I wanted to but because I had to. As. difficult as it was, I knew that leaving was one of the best decisions Ive ever made. It. has taken me years to recover from enduring almost a decade of abuse, manipulation. I am still recovering. An error occurred while setting your user cookie. Please set your. browser to accept cookies to continue. NEJM. org uses cookies to improve performance by remembering your. ID when you navigate from page to page. This cookie stores just a. ID no other information is captured. Accepting the NEJM cookie is.